Things are getting a Little better.

So I've been here about three weeks now and I have to admit things are getting a lot better. I owe it all to my good friends Luke and Kara though. They have made things so much easier on me, wether it be letting me stay at there house or forcing me out of the house they put my mind at ease! I use to hang out with them in tech school and as soon as I got here it was like we never parted everything was the same. Kara was in my basic flight and also My roommate in Tech school. Lets just say Im very thankful to have them. On another note, I got the keys to my Apartment on base today! I was so excited I can't wait to decorate and finally have a place I can call my own!! Tomorrow I move out of my house and I am extremely excited to get out of there that place does nothing but scare the bajeebus out of me! I am getting so close to going back to the states to visit my family and be with my husband and I CANNOT WAIT. This past weekend I went to the "K-Club" with Luke and Kara and there friend Scott and man was it terrible, not the club its self but the fact that everyone and everything reminded me of Cody. I kept double taking and it just made me miserable! I just know not to do that!! When i get into my apartment Ill make sure to post pictures but at the moment I don't really have anything so I'm staying with Luke and Kara, I just wanted to keep you posted. Ill most likely post again after I get back Happy Holidays!!!

I miss you.

Happiness in marriage is not something that just happens. A good marriage must be created. In the Art of Marriage, the little things are the big things. It is never being too old to hold hands. It is remembering to say ‘I love you’ at least once a day. It is never going to sleep angry. It is at no time taking the other for granted; the courtship should not end with the honeymoon; it should continue through all the years. It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives. It is standing together facing the world. It is forming a circle of love that gathers in the whole family. It is doing things for each other, not in the attitude of duty or sacrifice, but in the spirit of joy. It is speaking words of appreciation and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways. It is not expecting the husband to wear a halo or the wife to have the wings of an angel. It is not looking for perfection in each other. It is cultivating flexibility, patience, understanding and a sense of humor. It is having the capacity to forgive and forget. It is giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow. It is finding rooms for things of the spirit. It is a common search for the good and the beautiful. It is establishing a relationship in which the independence is equal, dependence is mutual and obligation is reciprocal. It is not only marrying the right partner, it is being the right partner your my partner for life no matter how many deployments or separations. I love and miss you Cody Lee Crunelle.

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"Guten Tag"

Well greetings from Germany! I know I've been here for a week now but for that week I have been doing nothing but improcessing, shopping and enjoying my husbands last few days.  Speaking of, I dropped my baby off today at his squadron and gave him is last see you later's before he leaves. I felt kinda silly because i was the only one crying but man i couldn't hold it in. We hugged and kissed and he was walking off and then turned around and ran back for one more, I am going to miss him so so much. On a better note because i really don't want that on my mind at the moment I took some people out of my life that have caused the only problems that I've had recently and doing that has lifted a blanket off my husband and my shoulders for sure. As for Germany.. well as of right now I have to say I am not a fan. Yes its beautiful but it is going to be extremely hard to get use to this culture. Every road sign (including on base) is German, theres round a bouts instead of stop signs, everyone in my town is german, i can't understand anything on menu's. I might just need time but I am definitely not a happy camper. I also am getting rid of my house because with my husband being gone for the next 9 months I am going to be in that huge thing alone..no thanks! Also since it took so long to ship my car I am stuck driving my husbands BMW and let me tell you I SUCK AT DRIVING STICK!!! I stall out everywhere and I'm really just uneasy about driving, its not safe, but i have no choice. I have a walk threw in an apartment thats perfect size on base tomorrow which is awesome because the wait is a month and i got it the next day, I must have some luck! I hope everything with that tomorrow goes well. My husband and I went to the BX this weekend to fight the crowds because we need some necessities for the house but ran into some amazing deals and we wound up getting a 40 inch TV for $299 and apple TV came free! I also got him a pretty sweet new knife and a macbook because he really needed a good laptop for his deployment. Anyways  I have been trying to take pictures of everywhere Ive been going but I'm really terrible at it haha. I do have a few pictures and I will leave you with them! I'll try to keep up on here more that hubby is gone but I can't promise!

These are all the K-town Christmas Shoppes downtown. 

OH! I forgot to mention instead of hot coco they have hot wine, with shots of whiskey...man these people can drink!

lump in my heart.

So again I was working twelves this week and man was it the wrong week to be doing that. It was my last free week not to be to crazy with PCSing, but of corse now it wasn't. I was working like a dog trying to get everything done and by the end of the work day I just wanted to sleep, and that I did I was asleep by 730 every night. It sounds pathetic but I really do get kicked in the butt working 12 hour shifts. With the days getting shorter I have so much on my plate now. I literally have something to do everyday this week.

Monday:bring car to california port.

Tuesday: TMO comes 

Wednesday: get the rest of my checklist done.

Thursday:final out

Friday:on a plane to Germany.

It seems so surreal to me. I still cannot grasp the feeling that I'm leaving this place,well at least not until today.

Today I did one of the toughest things I have ever had to do since leaving home. I gave Dozer away. I had a few options of what to do with him but I think I picked an awesome home for him. the lady is super nice and has kids that will love him more then anything. She also has a female pit that looks identical to him and they get along very well. It made it a lot easier on me but I hate the empty feeling i have with out him:(. other then find him a new home I gathered al my belongings and put them in one area for TMO. Man do I have a lot of clothes! And after running erons Trish and I went to her moms and we had dinner and played uno for a while with everyone. I am really going to miss it here just for the simple fact of her family. They are awesome and have excepted me as one of there own. A lot has happened this week that has put a perspective on things and has kicked me into sad mode about moving, but also happy that I will be with my amazing husband. So wish me luck for this week and after I'm settled i'll be sure to keep you updated!

My right hand man and best friend, forever and always<3

Surprise, Surprise!

So like I said yesterday I traveled to Texas to Surprise my husband at the airport and that is just what I did! I had a massive sign with his name on it and I was standing right were everyone comes out of the terminals and I was only 1 of 2 people standing there so I thought it was a flawless plan and he'd see me as soon as he was coming down the escalator, I was wrong. My husband must have just been totally out of it because as he is coming down the stairs I'm smiling from ear to ear staring right at him like a creeper but he is more focused on everything else around him that he walked right past me! I then yelled his name and he still didn't zone in on me he looked the complete opposite way haha, then i just ran up to him and said his name and he looked at me in shock for a good 15 seconds with nothing to say then i jumped on him and hugged him forever. It was such a great feeling! Last night we didn't do anything but hangout cause we were both tired from our travels. Tonight is my last night here so I was thinking of maybe going down town and going on the river walk or something. Right now I'm just waiting for him to get out of class so we can have a good night! Im off to get ready!

San Antonio!

Almost there.

Getting my life together for my PCS seems like I have no control over anything, the Air Force is hurry up and wait I am stuck putting everything off till the last minute. It is really bugging me because as much as i like to say i don't like planning things i always wind up doing the complete opposite. Among the long list of tasks i need to complete before i leave i have to drive to california to drop my car off and have TMO come get my house hold goods. I have scheduled both of them and everything else on my checklist is pretty much done, thankfully! doing this move alone is definitely no fun at all but it will be the first and last time i do it with out my husband:) I have a lot on my plate with things that are going on and I've been keeping a pretty good composure but just the other day Cody told me that he is deploying shortly after I get to Germany, that was some of the worst news I've herd in a long time.My heart sank and i got the biggest lump in my throat,but i knew when i married him his job deploys a lot and its just something i am going to have to get use to. Plus with this PCS we've learned to cope with things a lot better. I know i mention it a lot but having Trish around has kept me cain with out my husband. she lit-tra-lee takes my mind off of it and puts me in a better state of mind. Lily is a big help to because that little girls smile can brighten a room, although to doesn't help my baby fever -__- Speaking of, me and my husband were talking about having one of our own and we want to do it a lot sooner then we originally planned. we want to travel for a year or two then work on our family:) I'm so excited! My husbands birthday is on the 1st and i already sent him some presents that he really liked but i know what he really wanted was just to have me there already and of course i couldn't give that to him but then he was tasked with a TDY to Texas a few days ago and a brilliant idea popped into my head to get my butt there! He has no idea but i left yesterday and drove from tucson and I'm currently waiting his arrival in texas. It is so nerve racking waiting for him,time is going by so slow. But i know the second we see each other it will be all worth it! I can't wait to see the look on his face when he see's me hold up an obnoxious sign with his name on it:) AHHH I'm getting butterflies just thinking about it! But I'm going to get all prettied up for him and take care of last minute things, ill leave you with some cute ideas I've been finding for my new house:)

 an old rake for a wine glass holder

a giant ruler to measure the littles

above our bed:)

a wine glass holder to hold towels!

 I'm always losing things so a central area for keys

and coffee beans to hold my makeup!

12's are the worst!

So all week I have been working 12 hour shifts get in a 6am and leave around 6-6:30ish. I really don't know how my husband does it because I seriously wanted to kill someone, I was a reck. If you know me well you know that if I don't get enough sleep I become a walking zombie who you don't want to talk to. I'm cranky and snappy as hell,and that was definitely me this week. I give props to my baby because he does it everyday. On the other hand it gave me so much time to finish my CDC's and that means I'm that much closer to getting to Germany:) Now all I have to do is my 30 day comprehensive review and then i get out of this forsaken place! My husband has been sending me pictures everyday of the weather and how nice it is outside, I CANNOT WAIT! My husband grew up here in Arizona so he doesn't have winter clothes and when i get there we get to go crazy and get him all sorts of comfy winter clothes and tons on lazy lay around OUR house clothes, ahhhhhhh I'm so excited. Since I was working all week I didn't do anything but pass out when i got home everyday so i don't have any fun news. Yesterday I did go to the slaughter house with a bunch of friends from work and my girlfriend, I was so freakin' scared! It was really fun. Tomorrow I have off so Trish and I are going to go up to seven falls together and hike our butts off! Its really Short this week sorry, but its sunday and I have a bunch of arrons to do and some cleaning! Follow me:)

I miss you baby!

mustache you a question.

So I haven't posted in forever because lately my life has been so busy! And not to mention that my laptop took a dump on me,thankfully I have my back up funds and bought an apple macbook pro:) it is awesome! I needed a god computer because thats one of the few ways I get to see my hubby. Ive been really loving were my life has been the last few weeks and really couldn't ask for anything else considering I can't have my husband. Trish and I cannot keep up with lilly lately she is growing so fast! When I was first staying with her she was barely talking and just very sleepy now she is playing with her toys and grabbing her feet,  it's precious. Trish and I have realized that we are pretty much inseparable,everything we do... we do together and after being with each other everyday were going to have the worst goodbye when i leave for Germany. I am so not looking forward to it. Among all the craziness in my life lately my husband has really been showing me how amazing he is in every way possible. Even though he is across the world he has such a way to put a smile on my face. I have gotten three wonderful bouquets of flowers and an awesome backpack! He picks up on simple things i just say i think are cute or something like that them bam there in my hands! not to mention we've been talking a lot more which is so so nice, i love hearing him. it puts me at such ease. In one of our conversations we talked about how he may be the flight chief for his new unit and considering he is a really young staff I am SO proud of him. It really shows how working hard pays off because other then my father he is the hardest working man I know. 

When Im not talking to him of course Im with Trish and man do we stay busy! We have done so much, from going on an off road adventure looking for pumpkins to decorating the house:) I have pictures of a lot of things that we did but still not everything.

I figured to start out with what we start out with everyday! STARBUCKS, there fall collection is that  possibly the greatest tasting coffee i have ever came into contact with. Any time we go out we have to run and get either the salted carmel Frap or the pumpkin spice. Were obsessed.

All of these beautiful flowers and sick back pack are from the hubby, he's the bomb-dot-com.

Mt. Lemmon is definitely my favorite place to be in Tucson and I had a short day Friday because I had my squadron picnic which I had my wife come to so we figured to go up the mountain. It was beautiful everything about it including the weather!

Here is the house! It is very simple but it looks so cute passing by. Usually I go all out for Halloween but It is my first Halloween being married and I wanna save decorating for next year when I'm actually with him.

Like Ive said before everything about fall is my favorite including Halloween, and I really get into it. It might be because I have a weird interest in vampires and how seductive and set they are or just the fact of how cool it is to dress up and just have fun. But these are a few of the pictures of my friends that Ive edited for halloween for fun!



I know its not much today but I have somethings I've got to get done and go have some more fun with my lover! Follow me:)

I miss you more and more everyday baby.

Some people come in your life as blessings others in your life come as lessons

Threw out my whole life ive had so many people come and go, and when a person comes along that i like i try everyway possible to keep them in my life. there are just few now a days but they are some of the greatest people in this world,

Alyssa Hanson: 

I dont even know where to start, she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. she is truly the greatest friend I've ever had. i met her the first year i moved to Blairstown and ever since then her and I have had a roller coaster of fun and amazing times. My senior Year i moved in with her and her wonderful mother who now I call my own. She is really like a sister to me any time i needed her she was there, any time i was upset she made me smile and she's always putting everyone before herself.

 Rachel Caggiano:

Rachel is probably the only person from my graduating class that i can say i actually liked threw out high school.Her and I had classes together and had to deal with each other almost everyday. Shes extremely fun, although completely different then I am Her and I some how got along. She would have my back for most anything and i know i can rely on her.

 Delsa Keirnan:

Delsa is by far the sweetest most genuine friend a person could ask for,She is like no one else. everything about her sparkles,she is a ditsy,but intelligent strong willed little girl. She puts herself last ALWAYS and shes just the person  to go to if your having a hard time.

Trish George:

 Oh Trish, she is like me in another body, no joke. I haven't known her for long at all but it feels like a lifetime. She is the best room ate i could ask for out of Blairstown. Her and I spend everyday with each other and I somehow dont get tired of her. For people who know me well,other then the ladies on this page i hate girls. everything about them erks me. But Trish is exactly the same she is one wild and crazy person. If i have a sudden urge to go do something she'd be right behind me. I'm a little upset that I met her so late but im glad shes in my life now.

   

 

Exciting things to come.

My life has been pretty hectic over the past few months because i have a ton on my plate.I am battling a terrible stomach problem, trying to get all my things together, losing weight and doing my cdc's!  everything is pretty self explanitory except for cdc's there my upgrade training, there probably the size of an average college book but i only have 2 weeks to finish each volume, and i have 9!!! i have been working so hard to get them done but i feel like im not getting anywhere i just want them to be done!! ugh! but on a better note while i have been back in the states my husband has been working his little butt of in Germany getting everything together for me to get over there, i have to admit at first i was a little worried but man he just proved me wrong again! He has been house hunting for weeks and picked a house! i couldn't do any better myself, he is seriously amazing.

I guess some of it is being remodeled so it has some work, but i cant wait! I just just want to start my life with my husband, we've been married for almost 6 months and have never had each other so were starting a little late, dont get me wrong i love my roomate but having my husband and our own house will be so nice:)

well im off to make my roomie some desert and do some more cdc's considering she made me dinner!

 39 days<3

OH for the love.

So since Ive been in Tucson i have been on one crazy roller coaster, but i am sure happy where im at now! I live with my double, its so weird. Her names Trish and she is as crazy and random as i am, for example today we sat in the walmart parking lot just to see "the people of walmart" oh for the love, who does that? WE DO! its so nice to have a roomate that i can spend everyday with and still look forward to coming home too, it really helps the whole my husband not being here thing. her husband is deployed and shes just as lonely as i am so its a nice mixture. Over the past week weve done so much especially food shopping! I FEEL LIKE we go everyday but I'm not complaining! also candle shopping for some reason we are OBSESSED with candles,our house smells like a bakery and its amazinggggg. She has a daughter who is making my baby fever so much worse, i love her shes is a bundle of joy and seeing trish be a mom at my age and  such a good one makes me want a baby that much more, not that i plan on having babies for a while but the thought is nice. so on  a different note i have 40 days till i see the love of my life,my hubby:) when ever i get some free time ive been trying to put my wedding together. it has been a dream of mine to have it where im planing it till this day and i cant wait to have it come all together, not to mention a old friend is doing my flowers. to some it up ill show you some pictures!

                 This is the chapel,it sits on long beach island where i grew up around the bay area.

 This is the actual estates area for the guests and dinner.

I'm using MDS floral design, my old neighbor Michelle, she has beautiful work i remember when she use to work out of her basement now she is in all the big wedding magazines and on platinum vendor lists, its so nice to see people go places in life!

Speaking of things i cant wait for....FALL oh man my favorite time of year! You can bundle up,drink warm cider carve pumpkins... i can go on forever so to leave with a good note ill show you just some of my favorite things!

 Cider!

 Falling colored leaves!

 

Hay rides!

 Pumpkin pie!

 Carving Pumpkins!

My Uggs!!!

I know it was short today but I have to go do CDC's(which i can explain next blog)